Random thoughts…

This started as a quick Facebook update with some verses I’m meditating on today, and developed into so much more! I’ve never had such a hunger to learn more, such a desire to seek the truth of God, and I’ve never had so many notes from church, or my personal devotions, for that matter! I want to share all of this with the whole world, I feel like I could just explode lol. So here it is, for any who want to read my scattered thoughts and follow my journey of Jesus-following. I realize it’s not of interest to everyone, but if I can even create a picture for you of the tiniest amount of what he’s doing in my life, it would change YOUR life! Seriously.

Ok, so today’s devotions! I was reading Psalm 27, and ALL of it is just amazing and so applicable to my life right now, but these verses stood out the most…

Psalm 27:13-14:”I would have lost heart, unless I believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. 

Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord.”
These verses speak to me so much, I don’t even know if I can explain it! Here’s my attempt:

I do lose heart, frequently, because I keep doubting that I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. That’s what heaven is for, after all, isn’t it? “I just can’t wait for heaven” I keep saying, because life here on earth is full of tragedy and sorrow and I just try and get through it so I can get to the other side. But the key to strengthening one’s heart is “wait on the Lord, be of good courage.” And I suck at waiting. I want answers NOW, Lord! 🤦🏻‍♀️

Also, interesting to me in this verse, is that the word “wait” in the Hebrew means “to look eagerly for.” Whoa. Not passive waiting around… but eagerly anticipating. I have pretty much never eagerly anticipated God in my life…ever.

So now I’m in a season of waiting, and there is absolutely nothing I can do but pray and seek Him. And I’m learning to believe that I WILL see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living, right here on earth! I always believed in the “God of miracles,” but I never believed he would do it for me, and I believed miracles on earth were rare nowadays. Why aren’t they more prevalent? I’ve been learning in church so much about this… 

“if we worship the miracle instead of the One who performs the miracle, He will stop doing them.”  I’ve seen this in so many circles, and that’s probably why I shied away from “miracle working Christians,” because they make such a fuss and end up giving glory to the person, and worshipping the miracle itself, instead of God who gave them that miracle. It’s quite an interesting thought, and I know I want God to be able to trust me with miracles! 

So anyway, today, I’m claiming his promise to strengthen my heart! I’m waiting on HIM, and believing that I WILL see the goodness of the Lord right here on earth! ❤